How did that happen? I'm afraid to blink or sleep because I know I'm going to wake up and he will be 12 ... and then 18 ... and then out of the house.
Sigh.
I love him more than I thought it was possible to love someone. I have a love tank that belongs to him alone. And when it leaks, he fills it right back up with his great hugs.
A couple of days ago I wrote a post expressing my frustration at not knowing how to parent my children's hearts instead of just their behavior. At the end, I wrote a heartfelt prayer for wisdom. God began answering that prayer just a couple of hours later.
Later the same day (after I wrote the other post), I had two conversations with Nathan. They weren't unusual conversations, but somehow (I believe it was God's answer to my prayer) I saw him more clearly than I ever had before. The Lord pinpointed some specific heart issues that I needed to address, and I began the very next day. (This will be an ongoing process.) These are issues that I also struggle with personally, so it was an important reminder for me as well.
Now obviously God is the only one Who can truly change either of our hearts, but I do believe I play a role in that as his mother. I pray that God will continue to show me how to reach Nathan's heart (and his sister, Megan's, as well) and that I will respond accordingly.
Thank You, Lord, for answering my prayer!
Has the Lord shown you specific heart issues in your own children (or in yourself), and how have you responded?
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It does my heart so much good to read of your deep, deep love for your son. Indeed, he is a special child. Boys and their moms -- hard to describe but great to experience.
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